Well, I feel like my life is going in fast forward motion and I cant seem to slow it down for anything. I JUST had a baby like yesterday ( it seems ) and he will be 6 months old next month......what the heck? I want to keep my babies tiny forever! Last night around midnight, Camden woke up and just started crying for me and Chris. I went in there and laid with him for a bit and as I was laying there in his bed with my arms around my sweet baby, I realized that the times of him coming to me and Chris because he is scared or needs help are not going to last forever. I almost just started crying with him thinking about him as a grown man and not needing his mommy anymore......hes already 2 1/2.....this just doesn't seem fair. I literally cherish every moment I have with my boys, because I know that it will not always be this way.
I LOVE each and every stage that we have experienced so far with each of our children. Camden is learning how to potty train ( Which is NOT going very well haha but he will eventually get it ) and Cayson is already holding his own bottle and attempting the army crawl. He can already scoot forward.....its just insane. Which makes it harder is that this is it for me. I am finished having children. Every time I say that to anyone they just laugh and tell me how young I am and times will change.....I REALLY don't think it will honestly....the only thing that might possibly happen in the late future would be an adoption. Chris and I have always talked about it since before we even got married that we would one day like to give a child a better life. My sister-in-law Gerianne is adopted and I know that her parents just completely adore her. I could see that with Chris and I one day...
Well I did great in my classes and I could not be any more please! This was a big challenge for me because I was having to adjust to being in school with 2 kids instead of 1 and not having any help from Chris during the week because he goes straight from work to school. We pretty much live for the weekends when we can be together as a family. Things are crazy at our house but we are getting by! I just keep telling myself that once Chris graduates things will slow down....I'm hoping for it anyways.....and then when I graduate the following year, maybe things will REALLY slow down.
Well we are going home in 2 weeks exactly. I cant even begin to explain how excited I am to see family and friends. Most of our family except for my parents and Chris' parents and Gerianne are the only people who have met Cayson. I cant wait to see everyone!
Ok so i am SOOOOO ready for fall. I am ready for warm sweaters and jeans, ugg boots, the leaves changing, family activities like going to fifers orchard and enjoying the cool air outside as much as possible, baking, Halloween, cornbread and chili ( my fav) NO MORE HEAT!!, Thanksgiving, and then CHRISTMAS! :) I am just so ready for this time of year. After fall means winter which means Christmas! Do you remember how much fun Christmas was when you were little? Well it is like that but X10 when you get to do it for your own children and see how excited they get. Is it silly that I am already scheming for Christmas? I am DETERMINED to surprise Chris this year....but how I am not sure yet!!
Well, please continue to pray for our schooling. It will be the biggest blessing when we complete our degrees! I am just taking things day by day!
Much love and God bless!
Sarah
