Fast Paced!!!

Well, I feel like my life is going in fast forward motion and I cant seem to slow it down for anything. I JUST had a baby like yesterday ( it seems ) and he will be 6 months old next month......what the heck? I want to keep my babies tiny forever! Last night around midnight, Camden woke up and just started crying for me and Chris. I went in there and laid with him for a bit and as I was laying there in his bed with my arms around my sweet baby, I realized that the times of him coming to me and Chris because he is scared or needs help are not going to last forever. I almost just started crying with him thinking about him as a grown man and not needing his mommy anymore......hes already 2 1/2.....this just doesn't seem fair. I literally cherish every moment I have with my boys, because I know that it will not always be this way.
I LOVE each and every stage that we have experienced so far with each of our children. Camden is learning how to potty train ( Which is NOT going very well haha but he will eventually get it ) and Cayson is already holding his own bottle and attempting the army crawl. He can already scoot forward.....its just insane. Which makes it harder is that this is it for me. I am finished having children. Every time I say that to anyone they just laugh and tell me how young I am and times will change.....I REALLY don't think it will honestly....the only thing that might possibly happen in the late future would be an adoption. Chris and I have always talked about it since before we even got married that we would one day like to give a child a better life. My sister-in-law Gerianne is adopted and I know that her parents just completely adore her. I could see that with Chris and I one day...
Well I did great in my classes and I could not be any more please! This was a big challenge for me because I was having to adjust to being in school with 2 kids instead of 1 and not having any help from Chris during the week because he goes straight from work to school. We pretty much live for the weekends when we can be together as a family. Things are crazy at our house but we are getting by! I just keep telling myself that once Chris graduates things will slow down....I'm hoping for it anyways.....and then when I graduate the following year, maybe things will REALLY slow down.
Well we are going home in 2 weeks exactly. I cant even begin to explain how excited I am to see family and friends. Most of our family except for my parents and Chris' parents and Gerianne are the only people who have met Cayson. I cant wait to see everyone!
Ok so i am SOOOOO ready for fall. I am ready for warm sweaters and jeans, ugg boots, the leaves changing, family activities like going to fifers orchard and enjoying the cool air outside as much as possible, baking, Halloween, cornbread and chili ( my fav) NO MORE HEAT!!, Thanksgiving, and then CHRISTMAS! :) I am just so ready for this time of year. After fall means winter which means Christmas! Do you remember how much fun Christmas was when you were little? Well it is like that but X10 when you get to do it for your own children and see how excited they get. Is it silly that I am already scheming for Christmas? I am DETERMINED to surprise Chris this year....but how I am not sure yet!!
Well, please continue to pray for our schooling. It will be the biggest blessing when we complete our degrees! I am just taking things day by day!
Much love and God bless!
Sarah

Getting Back on Track

So for the past month or so I have sort of gotten out of touch with the important things in my life. I have not been neglecting my responsibilities but my head and my heart have just not been into them. Chris and I started a new Bible Study last night and I have begun writing my my prayer journal again. I know that these things will get my head and my heart back to where I want it to be.
I started working out about two months ago and I am so happy to say that it is paying off. I am down 50 pounds since I had Cayson. I still have more weight that I want to lose but this is a big milestone that I am proud of.
My schooling has been an issue for me lately. This is my first semester back since having had Cayson. It is a lot harder doing school with two babies than it was with 1. Not that I dont have exceptional children but nonetheless it is difficult to stay focused on school work when I am constantly feeding babies, changing diapers, potty training, kissing booboos, picking up toys, and trying to keep them entertained. Being a mommy is so unbelievably rewarding but it does make every day tasks a bit difficult. I was, however, given great news today! I got my grades back for mid-semester grades and I am doing well. I was very relieved to get an A on my midterm paper and slide show.
I have finally gotten a routine down with the boys that is doable :). I am happy to say that my house only looks like a tornado every once and a while now instead of every week haha. They are so fun. They are just growing up so fast i feel like every time a blink they are bigger. Cayson is 4 months old now and he has quite the personality. He loves to smile and laugh and is very entertained by his bubba. Camden wants to play with him so bad and he is learning that he has to be VERY gentle around him. He is such a good helper. He helps by bringing mommy diapers and wipes and then throwing the diapers in the trashcan ( his favorite part! )
Chris is in school full time so he comes home from work and pretty much goes straight to school. I cant wait until next December when he can walk the stage. It will be such a great accomplishment for him and I will be so proud. I know he misses spending all of his time with the boys but he is doing it for us which just makes me love him more.
A little about our bible study. We are reading a book called "the sacred romance" which is about your personal relationship with God. We are barely into the book but I can already tell that its going to be a wonderful study to do together.
Stress has hit me like a train lately and I have just decided to let go and let God. I finally realized the other day that I cannot deal with all of this on my own and I need our Lord and Savior on my side to get through it. The littlest things have just been pushing me over the edge lately and I have finally decided to give it up to God. I know that he is on my side and I am not alone. It kind of reminds me of the song from Barlow Girl " I cried out with no reply and I cant feel you by my side so I look tight to what I know, You're here and I'm never alone". I love that song and it is so perfect. I know that God is in control and I am just so happy to get back on track with my relationship with him.
We are coming home next month for a long visit! Its going to be a great vacation and I cant wait to see all of our family and friends. It will be such a blessing to get away from everyday life and spend some quality time with family.
Thats all for now! Much love and God bless.
Sarah

Its been a while!

Well, I have been one busy woman since becoming the mother of 2 little boys. My days basically consist of cleaning, laundry, cooking, singing songs with Cam, feedings, changings, potty training (we will get to that in a minute!), homework, working out, playing with extremely loud toys, watching the disney channel with Cam, bathing the boys, and nap time (my favorite part of the day). When Chris is not at work or school we spend as much time together as possible! Weekends are a treat because there is no work and no school! I am so proud of him though. Although being alone all day and evening stinks, its going to be so worth it next year when he walks that stage! So unbelievably proud of him. He is such an amazing provider and friend.
Now potty training... Well basically what we are doing is setting a timer for every 30 mintues and sitting on the potty whether we need to go or not! Every time that timer goes off, Camden screams and runs up the stairs! Its kind of funny but I have to chase him every time haha. He hates it, but we arent giving up! My big boy turned 2 last month and I just can't believe it. This time is so precious but its flying by :(...... He got a big boy pool from mommy and daddy :) We have been having a lot of fun in there so far!
I am on week four of p90x. It is getting less and less hard to do which is good but I am always so nervous to measure myself every week. I have lost 24.5 inches thus far!
Now about Cayson. He is literally the best baby in the world. He sleeps all night. Its truly a gift straight from God! I dont know what I would do if he woke up 2-3 times a night like Camden did in the beginning. Hes so sweet and cuddly....totally enjoying the newborn stage!
I have an unspoken prayer request. If you have a minute please lift me up in prayer.
Much love and God bless.
-S

Prayer Requests...

I have had such a heavy heart lately. So much has been going on lately it just seems like we have been going 100 mph and it doesn't look like things are going to be slowing down any time soon. Please just pray for us so that we can get through everything this next month...
1. First and foremost, PLEASE pray for our extended family (The Phillips). Chris' aunt Cindy has been having severe liver problems and it has been a long roller coaster ride the past 2 weeks. She has recently been moved to hospice in Houston Texas. Please just pray for a peaceful passing. It was been horrible for us being so far away from the family in such a time of need. We wish more than anything that we could be there to just wrap our arms around everyone.Its hard being 1800 miles away from everyone and feeling helpless.
2. Please pray for Chris this next week. He starts school on Monday and will be taking 3 classes this summer meaning that he will be away from me and the boys 4 nights a week on top of being gone all day for work. I am so proud of Chris for all that he is doing and I know that he is doing it for the betterment of our family and our future. He has a little over a year left of school and he will finally have his degree. I could not be any more proud.
3. Please pray for Chris specifically on may 12. He will be taking his Staff Sgt. test that day. This is a very difficult test that, on average, is taken at least 2 times before passing it. Making Staff Sgt. does not only rely on the test but multiple factors. His PT test, EPR, and test are all accounted for and added up to see if he made it. For Chris, everything relies on how well he does on the test. He has the second highest PT score in his entire squadron and he has firewall fives on his EPR sheet. Because Chris has only been a Senior Airman for a couple of months, this will mean that he has to score higher on his Test than a lot of other people taking the test. You get more points for how long you have been in the military and how long you have had on your Senior Airman stripes. Chris has been studying very hard but in all reality, he could get a 90 on his test and still not make it. If people taking the test for a second or third time make the same grade as him, they will make staff before him because they will have more points for being in longer. It is confusing but please just pray for Chris during this time. He wants it badly.
4. Please pray for me. I have been through so much lately with c section recovery, being extremely ill for 6 weeks because of gall stones, and then getting my gall bladder removed 2 weeks ago. Please just pray that I stay feeling healthy and that there are no more obstacles that I need to overcome with this.
5. Please pray for my schooling as well. I start back again at the end of this month and I am very nervous. I am trying very hard to get on a constant schedule with the boys that include waking up in the morning, breakfast, baths, lunch with daddy, nap times, keeping the house clean, staying on top of the laundry, working out, and doing all of the grocery shopping and cooking. Adding school into this equation will be difficult but I have to get it done! It will be such an accomplishment once we both finally have our degrees. It will be such a rewarding time for us with having finished our degrees with two kids under our belts!

Thank you for your prayers everyone. They are so appreciated.
Much love and God bless.
Sarah

All Things New

Wow, It has been quite an eventful month in the Smith house. God has blessed us beyond our imagination and life is blissful. Chris, Camden, and I welcomed a new member to our little family. Cayson Trevor Smith came into the world on March 3, 2011 at 9:11am. My delivery was absolutely perfect and Cayson weighed 9lbs and was 22" long! i had a very big healthy boy! My recovery was perfect and I am healing very well, much quicker than I did with Camden thats for sure! We did so well that we got to go home a day early. However, our homecoming was less than perfect. The last night I was in the hospital with Cayson, Camden had been throwing up all night. He got the stomach flu from one of his friends. To make a long puke filled story short, we all (with the exception of Cayson) got the stomach flu- me, Chris, Camden, and my mom. All I have to say is thank God that Cayson didnt get it. I felt sooo horrible so I cant imagine how it would have made a newborn feel. God is so good.
Since then, Chris' parents have come for a visit as well and we had a great time. My sister Gerianne is coming in about 2 weeks and I am soo excited to see her!
Chris, Camden, Cayson, and I have just been getting into the swing of things and getting used to our new schedule. I can't believe that God has blessed me with these two beautiful little boys. They are the absolute light of my life. I HAVE to brag....my newborn is already sleeping 6 hours straight at night EVERY night. Hes amazing.
Thats all for now. Laundry is calling my name!
Much Love and God bless!
Sarah

day 10, your views on drugs and alcohol

unless you are taking prescription drugs from a doctor for medical purposes, there is no reason for anyone to ever be taking drugs whatsoever. Drugs are just stupid and can cost you your life. I had two friends in high school die from drugs....one boy took some kind of pill and his body reacted to it in a different way and he died....another boy committed suicide because he was not in his right mind because of the drugs that he had taken. There are so many wonderful things in life that can give you that "high" feeling that you are looking for....you just have to find what that is for you.... for me, its being a good wife, seeing my precious baby smile and be happy, making good grades, or even that simple feeling of being finished cleaning the kitchen does it for me haha. Bottom line, drugs are stupid and ruin people's lives.
Alcohol...to me, if you are drinking alcohol just to get drunk, then that is just stupid...if you are drinking alcohol just to fit in, that is stupid....if you are drinking alcohol to escape reality, it is stupid..... Now, I am not going to sit here and lie and say that I have no done my fair share of drinking. When i was in high school, I went through a very rough patch that lead to drinking excessively every weekend and making some very bad choices for myself. Luckily, this didn't last long and I am fortunate enough to say that it did not leave me with consequences that I would have to live with...
I will occasionally have a glass of wine if my husband and I are sitting at home watching a movie or we go out on a date...but once you become a parent, it is just not worth it. Could you imagine being so drunk that heaven forbid something happen to your child in the middle of the night but you are too passed out to do anything about it? Ya, try living with that for the rest of your life.
So in the end....drugs are stupid and alcohol is stupid if you don't know self control.
Thats all for now! Much love and God bless,
Sarah

oops forgot a few days of my challenge :)

6.The person you like and why you like them.
Well, there are a million reasons why I love my husband....
-he loves me and takes care of my and our child
-he is a hard worker and provides so well for us which allows me to stay home and raise our son
-he is extremely handsome
-he is romantic
-he puts my feelings before his own, always
-I trust him. This is a big deal for me because there are very few men in this world that I trust.
-he is my best friend and soul mate....it sounds so cliche for me to say this considering everyone says that their husbands are their best friends even if they treat them like crap, but he really is.
7.Your opinion on cheating on people.
- haha well.....cheating is wrong. In the married world, it is called adultery. When a man and wife exchange vows on their wedding day, that is a promise to GOD that you will love and cherish only each other as man and wife. Cheating is wrong and ruins marriages....so what is my opinion on cheating on people? Well, i think if you are the cheater, you are sinning against God and you will have to answer for it. So sucks for you.
8.Something you’re currently worrying about.
I am currently worrying about a few things. Am I going to go into labor before my due date? Are the new sectional, TV, and TV stand that we ordered going to get here before the baby is born so I can have furniture in our living room when we bring home our child? ( i know that one is silly)
I am trying to be as stress free right now as I can be in my fragile state but I am such a worry wort. I worry if I have nothing to worry about....its just what I do...
9.Your last kiss.
about 5 minutes ago from my husband before he fell asleep. :)

That's all for now!
Much love and God bless.
-Sarah